Meghan Markle says she thought about killing herself in latest Netflix docuseries - ‘All of this will stop if I’m not here’

Meghan Markle also claims she was 'not allowed' to get help and that 'they were concerned' about how it would look for the institution

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Meghan Markle has admitted that she thought about killing herself after “racist” media coverage.

The final part of the Sussexes’ controversial documentary has aired on Netflix, with the royal family braced to see how claims the Palace briefed against Harry and Meghan unfold.

In the fourth episode, Meghan says she thought about taking her own life.

Doria Ragland says it "broke her heart".
Doria Ragland says it "broke her heart".

Meghan Markle says: “It was like ‘All of this will stop if I am not here’. And that was the scariest thing about it because it was such clear thinking.”

Her mother, Doria Ragland, says: “I remember her telling me that, that she had wanted to take her own life, and that really broke my heart because I knew…

“Well, I knew it was bad, but to just constantly be picked at by these vultures, just picking away at her spirit, that she would actually think of not wanting to be here. That is not an easy one for a mum to hear.”

Wiping away tears, she added: “And I can’t protect her. H (Harry) can’t protect her.”

Prince Harry says he "never thought it would get to that stage"
Prince Harry says he "never thought it would get to that stage"

Harry continues: “I was devastated, I knew that she was struggling, we were both struggling.

“But I never thought that it would get to that stage, I felt angry and ashamed.

“I didn’t deal with it particularly well, I dealt with it as institutional Harry, as opposed to husband Harry.

“And what took over my feelings was my royal role, I’d been trained to worry more about ‘what are people going to think if we don’t go to this event? We’re going to be late’

“Looking back on it now, I hate myself for it.”

“What she needed from me was so much more than I was able to give.”

Meghan goes on to explain how she was “not allowed” to get help and that “they were concerned” about how it would look for the institution.

The last three episodes of the six-part series began streaming at 8am on Thursday.